i had a fight with one of my best friends last night and i dont know what to feel

it wasn’t a screaming and yelling fight, it was quiet and truthful and hurtful

i just feel like a fight like this has been festering and waiting for the past three years as we grew further and further apart and a part of me is relieved and the other part is.. sad? angry? indifferent? i don’t know

in a way this just felt likevclosure and i don’t think we are going to talk for a while, maybe weeks or months and that is completely okay with me, i feel like i need the break

i know i probably was more to blame in this fight since it focused on me moving and not doing it with her and i guess that is why i just let her say whatever she wanted to and i know i should have stopped her and not kept quiet but somewhere i was hoping that if she got whatever off her chest that we could return to being best friends but she just got worse in a way that i have never seen and i should have opened my mouth and said something but i really couldn’t see the point of it last night

i think i am hurt and i, for once, have so many things going for me that i don’t really care about her and her world anymore and that is not how a friendship works

hopefully this summer and the next few weeks can give us both some perspective and peace and quiet